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This blogs is actually my life time story and its more like a diary to me, so all I hope from this diary is to be heard and want to share my pain, joy and happiness to someone that would come to visit this side. Anyway, I hope you can get something useful on this blog.

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Wednesday, March 24, 2010

The Mystery

There are many things that happen so quickly that you even couldn’t not take a breath from it, such as your partner breaking-up with you, your most favorite pet die because of worm infection or someone willingly give his or her body to you. Whether it was bad or good, we still in a shock at that moment, the moment we can’t say a word about it, the moment of surprise.

Yes, surprise, very deep kind of words and full with unknown mystery that always keep us wondering why it must become a surprise. Mystery, a word that full with paradox of everything in this world, explain the unexplained in very simple yet strong way, such as what happen to us after we die.

This remain mystery for those who study the essence of life and death, for the believer, there are 2 kind of place that awaits us, heaven and hell. For the unbeliever, there is no life or anything after our body stops functioning, we just die like a death tree and rotting in ground.

The question is, which one is the true statement about what happen after we die? There has been some argue about this topic, yet we still don’t know which one is true, only this that will happen after we die? What about other religion that said we will be reincarnate as a different living things depend on the merit and sin that we get during our hearth still pumping our blood? There are many kind of believe about what will happen then, some say we will turn into star that shine the darkness of night and some culture believe that our soul will combine with the universe.

Soul, another topic in mystery chapter, so what is actually soul then? As many people believe that soul in an ethereal entity that we cannot see in naked eye or able to touch them or be touch by them. The main question is, is it exist?

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Things happen to me today makes me think twice what is actually God plan for me, as always, we cannot think what God think. Instead we can just follow the Flow of God will, we as His servant cannot do anything or deny His will, as if we are His puppet. He controls and makes everything happen in our life, such as a simply things like you watch at the window and you saw a butterfly fly through your window or when you drive your car, a song that you like the most being play at the radio, this short of things is His will.

This is His will for me to write this essay, this is how I express my idea about the divine power, God. All day I have thinking about His action, His will, and His mind, but as His puppet, I can only manage to get a little bit of it. Everything in this world, He’s in charge, one God and thousand people, but how can only one boss control thousands or trillions people every second? Even in the biggest company in this world have many CEOs or bosses. That’s why we call Him, the God. One power that control life and death, which control the wind and the storm, without Him, we nothing, as for that, we cannot deny His existent.

Not all His will is good for us, He also control the bad things that happen in this world. It is His will that bad things happen such as murderer, suicide, and much more. Why am I say that He control it? It is His will! That’s why He is a God! It was His will that father rape his own daughter, it is His will that many people starve to death, and it is His will to control the bad things, very bad things. It’s not that all the bad things happen in the world we blame it on God, if there is no bad things, there would be no life! He wants to create a beautiful world with variety of people on it, including the bad and good people. It’s not His fault that bad things happen to us, it is His will and it is our destiny for what have become to us.

Why? Why would God make a bad or terrible life for His servant? Why would God destroy His own creation, His beautiful creation such as the tsunami tragedy? There’s a reason or many reason! In my opinion, it is a test. Yes, a test for all of us. For tsunami instead, for me the reason for the extremely disaster happen is to teach us the living one how important life is, after the catastrophe, many lesson we learn, not just for the tsunami survivor but to all of us that very fortunate that this catastrophe not happen to us. Not just many sacred texts God teach us how to life in His world but His action to us will teach us a lesson that we will remember till death. Question yourself, what is actually happening to me? Why God give me a lot of trouble? Why this happen to me?! Why God makes my life terrible? For you that live in easy life, question yourself why God is makes your life easy and full with luxury? Seriously, ask yourself no matter who you are.

God is not evil and cruel to us, He also gives us something that is very special and only we, human have it, choices. We human have variety of the way life, it is the matter of which the way of life that we has choose, God only make that choices came true. It’s true that God control our life, but He gives us something that will determine our future life, that is we are free to choose the life that we want. If we choose the bad and negative way of life, then God will give you that, if you choose to have a happy life, then He will give you happy life. :)