Am I thinking too MUCH???

Am I? Maybe yes nor maybe not. Yes, I'm thinking too much to take an action. But somehow, this 'thinking' makes me more understand about myself and other thing such as God existence. You can use your mind to think but never too hard because it will become complicated and you will stuck at thinking proses, not taking action proses. That is what happening to me right now, I say that I want to find a job at Sabah here but then again, because of my analytical thinking, I'm stuck right here.

4/3/2011

7:04 AM

Actually, today is my big day, going to dinner at Le Meridian Hotel, MABES, one of my collage occasion that i must attend. Sitting here, listening silent hill the movie song, makes me feel very stress free. It's has been a long time since the last time i wrote my diary. I don't know who's reading my diary in the net but i get very much hit nowadays. Perhaps someone would be thankful for sharing my story or it could be something else.
Alep was in town today, I try to go out with him today but he didn't reply my message but it;s okay with me. I understand that he come here because of work and might be he and his gf or bf spending time, happily here. Not that I'm not happy for him, I'm happy for him. If he happy, than I'm happy too. One more thing, did I still have the same feeling with him? Honestly, i do have some feeling towards him.
Why would he border tell me that he's will be here at the first place? I want to forget him but it was he who always keep bugging in my life slot.