I already know this could happen..

Who knows, love can be such pain and hard. Im talking about love relationship between human, not God, in God love relationship, there is no pain and suffering like human love relationship. I think he is avoiding me for many days now, I would be a liar if i didnt miss him, yes I do miss him a lot. I couldnt not longer bear this pain anymore, I dont want to get hurt or anything, I just want to be free from this entrapment of love. Maybe, or just maybe, I can deactivate my hotmail account and with that, I can free myself from this forbidden love. I should known better and as i thought to myself, I already guessing that after I send my recent pic, he might be not interested in my anymore and I think my test show he really not interested in me anymore. So much for true love.