I know its hard...

I know its hard, but I must be strong. I must be strong to overcome the hardship of my life. I miss my friend, I miss my life at University, I miss the smell of smoking people, I miss the kindness of my friend, I miss them all. But who care if I miss them, Do they miss me too? Only few friend or maybe just one friend. I realize it was my own fault that I become like this, but I realize it very long time ago but I still keep continue destroying my life. As if my life is like a burning candle that's awaits the very end of my life span. If, I mean, if something happen to me, all I want from my friend and family is, to forget me, of course my mom would never forget me, I dont want any remembrance or anything, just delete all the photo or if you guys could, your memory about me, because I dont want to be remembered, I dont want to inflect pain to your life, I dont want you guys to be regretful, dont pity the death but pity the living. :) The only thing that should not be delete is my blog ok :) You have all my forgiveness if you guys have ever done something bad at me, but please do forgive my sins towards you guys okay :]