Dear As

Dear As

Salam As, I know its been along time since we last speaking or sms-ing. Well after I become real sick, I decide that I want to be alone for awhile and try to make my sense back together, thats why my facebook has been deactivated. I dont know if you read this email or not, but at least I try right? :] Well, congrats to your first convocation :] Anyway, I'm sorry that I cant go and see all my friends convocation time, well as you know, once you get sick, its hard to walk and even breath or eat right now, but I manage to do it just fine. So hows going with your dotA groups? I wish them all healthy and very well blessed.

First of all, I need to apologize for all terrible things that I had done to you and your friends, I know that Im suck in friendship but at least I can get some sweet from it, at least I can taste how to be love (friendship love) The things that I do in the past, I know Im a selfish type of guys but you have to forgive me because I firstly dont know how to act normal or be normal in friendship. I was a loner since I was little and all I know sex is how to make friend and lust is how we express our friendship love, I have been sexually abuse with many guys including women but I manage to survive all this kind of hardship and look at me right now...

Anyway, say Salam to all your friends and including Zam dota okay, he is more like my brother to me, not base on lust but a true brother, one day I pray to Allah that He send me a good brother that will guide me and He did answer my prayer. About Mazje, he is nice and very fun loving kind of friends. Even I did mess up in the past with him but he still want to be friend with me. He is the only Sarawakian friend that i can freely talk sarawak. In hard time, he was there, helping me out, even just a little and simple help, I really apriciate it. About Im, I just want to clear all the things that he might misunderstood me. The post on my fb is not for you guys but its for Jaka and his team, you see on that day, they didnt play well and they blame me because Im not Qayum. That is why I so mad at them and post on fb, you know right if we play with the mindset that we will lose, than you will lose just like we play with sa-Meon. I hope this will clear our misunderstood. About man, handsome and great friend, he should be work on how to deal his love problem. Adi and Wan, great and very kind friends. Sa-Meon, a pro dota with good leadership ability and also a great friend. Jai-ruddin, I dont really know why he stop talking to me suddenly and act like he dont know me or dont want to be friend with me anymore, well whatever it is, its still my fault right? Its all my fault anyway, that we become like this and Im sorry I cannot help to improve to become just a good and normal friend.

Well I guess that is it right? I hope you can talk to them about this, even just a simple talk and reminder about me, I would be happy and please, dont forget that you had once be friend with me, because for me, you all are my best friend i ever had in my life, even its just for a year or just a simple friends, its mean a lot to me. I hope you guys would forgive my sins to you all. Be a good person as, and always remember Him, because you come from Him, and you shall end with Him. Salam

Your friend
Christ@Syah